On my rear view mirror is 2013, and boy was it something.
It started off with the hope of something better - landing a Govt job, and comes to an end with the hope of something better - following my dreams. As a personal exercise, I checked on the main events that happened to me over the past 12 months. You are welcome to read what I found out.
In JANUARY, I wrote an exam, cleared it successfully and was called for my first interview for a Govt job.
And so, I spent FEBRUARY dreaming about all the good things that it will bring to my life, especially the chance it'll give me to move back to the south.
By the time MARCH rolled out, I was dumped out of the interview unceremoniously. The dream castles I had built over a month came crashing down, leaving me with nothing, but nightmares.
APRIL turned out to be the worst month in my life till now. Depressed would be an understatement. I took a temporary absence from all social networks and did some soul searching. In the midst of all this, I started BLOGGING again.
MAY saw my best friend for over three years leave town - to join at the same govt job that I had also given interview for. He was in another branch, so it wasn't like he took my job. But the fact that he will get to enjoy the dreams that I so dearly loved pushed me further into chaos.
And out of that chaos was born a thrust - a thrust to push me in a direction that I never wanted to go in. To take risks, and to let go of my conventionalism. Hence, JUNE saw the birth of a new me.
JULY was witness to the efforts that I undertook to explore the opportunities for achieving what I wanted.
And AUGUST brought me back to reality. I realized that I would have to do something completely crazy to achieve what I wanted.
SEPTEMBER was spent brooding over the pros and cons of taking such a crazy decision.
OCTOBER had me struck down with Jaundice, confining me to the bed for most parts of it. But at the same time, it gave me an opportunity to come back to my hometown and do some further feasibility study for taking my crazy decision.
NOVEMBER presented me with a genuine cause, which made my crazy decision look slightly less crazy. And so I put in my papers at the job I had for 40 months, with just the minimum idea on what I'm going to do in the future.
DECEMBER is currently enjoying watching the effect of its 11 predecessors on me. Like I said last week, I'm 25 years old, unemployed, single, broke and living with my parents. It can't get any worse than this [I sincerely hope so].
***
It is the darkest before the dawn. I believe that you have to get used to being in pitch black darkness to be sure of seeing the single ray of light, when it shines down upon you. You'll then follow it out into the sunshine, where you eyes will be blinded by the sudden increase in contrast. When you finally come to your proper senses, you'll notice that it is another struggle. But now, you'll be better equipped to deal with all the crap that life throws at you - cos you know you overcame it once.
***
Looking away from the rear view mirror, I see intertwining paths before me, which run off into the horizon. I don't know how good or bad each path will be to me. I'm like a kid in a candy shop. I want to try each and every one of them. But for now, I've chosen one path, and it is through that path that I'll explore the year 2014.
When, and if, I do a review of 2014 one year from now, I'll look back on 2013, and think "That! That my friends was the turning point in my life." I just don't know whether it'll in a good sense, or bad.
It started off with the hope of something better - landing a Govt job, and comes to an end with the hope of something better - following my dreams. As a personal exercise, I checked on the main events that happened to me over the past 12 months. You are welcome to read what I found out.
In JANUARY, I wrote an exam, cleared it successfully and was called for my first interview for a Govt job.
And so, I spent FEBRUARY dreaming about all the good things that it will bring to my life, especially the chance it'll give me to move back to the south.
By the time MARCH rolled out, I was dumped out of the interview unceremoniously. The dream castles I had built over a month came crashing down, leaving me with nothing, but nightmares.
APRIL turned out to be the worst month in my life till now. Depressed would be an understatement. I took a temporary absence from all social networks and did some soul searching. In the midst of all this, I started BLOGGING again.
MAY saw my best friend for over three years leave town - to join at the same govt job that I had also given interview for. He was in another branch, so it wasn't like he took my job. But the fact that he will get to enjoy the dreams that I so dearly loved pushed me further into chaos.
And out of that chaos was born a thrust - a thrust to push me in a direction that I never wanted to go in. To take risks, and to let go of my conventionalism. Hence, JUNE saw the birth of a new me.
JULY was witness to the efforts that I undertook to explore the opportunities for achieving what I wanted.
And AUGUST brought me back to reality. I realized that I would have to do something completely crazy to achieve what I wanted.
SEPTEMBER was spent brooding over the pros and cons of taking such a crazy decision.
OCTOBER had me struck down with Jaundice, confining me to the bed for most parts of it. But at the same time, it gave me an opportunity to come back to my hometown and do some further feasibility study for taking my crazy decision.
NOVEMBER presented me with a genuine cause, which made my crazy decision look slightly less crazy. And so I put in my papers at the job I had for 40 months, with just the minimum idea on what I'm going to do in the future.
DECEMBER is currently enjoying watching the effect of its 11 predecessors on me. Like I said last week, I'm 25 years old, unemployed, single, broke and living with my parents. It can't get any worse than this [I sincerely hope so].
***
It is the darkest before the dawn. I believe that you have to get used to being in pitch black darkness to be sure of seeing the single ray of light, when it shines down upon you. You'll then follow it out into the sunshine, where you eyes will be blinded by the sudden increase in contrast. When you finally come to your proper senses, you'll notice that it is another struggle. But now, you'll be better equipped to deal with all the crap that life throws at you - cos you know you overcame it once.
***
Looking away from the rear view mirror, I see intertwining paths before me, which run off into the horizon. I don't know how good or bad each path will be to me. I'm like a kid in a candy shop. I want to try each and every one of them. But for now, I've chosen one path, and it is through that path that I'll explore the year 2014.
When, and if, I do a review of 2014 one year from now, I'll look back on 2013, and think "That! That my friends was the turning point in my life." I just don't know whether it'll in a good sense, or bad.
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